A New Day

So this is it. The day has finally arrived. It’s my birthday folks! Like I mentioned previously, I usually couldn’t be bothered that much, but today..Well, today is wee bit special because I am getting a god daughter this afternoon. I hope her imminent arrival to this world will mark as beautiful additional to her wonderful family. I hope she will grow up and make her parents and her god mother proud. I wish her all the best and I promise to try and be there whenever she needs me. This is the closest to being an actual mom that I can be. So help me God, I don’t intend to screw this. Yikes!

Updates (by text msgs to/fro)

@ 10.30 am – The Mummy (aka My Best Friend) has checked into the maternity ward and is waiting for the scheduled C- Section Ops.

@ 1.00 pm - Off to Operation Theatre. Gulp!

@ 3.00 pm - Yeay! the baby has been safely delivered.

Listen : Rock a baby lullaby

Random Things

These are so random, almost pointless even. But what the heck..

*A colleague recently left the company for greener pasture. Good for him! And that has triggered endless questions and discussions (and envy) among us. The most glaring and repetitive one is; what the fcuk are we still doing here??

* I watched ‘Heroes’ and finished whole season 2, 3 & 4. And I’m exhausted, man. The storyline is like..’phew! Let’s crammed all ideas we got and throw everything and anything into the series’ Seriously, WTF? But whatever..I digress. Still, Peter Petrelli is fun to drool over.

* I adore tone deaf people who are not afraid to make fun of themselves. In fact, I love the people who are not afraid to laugh at themselves once in a while. And getting up and singing in public probably not everybody’s forte, but when you take it with pinch of salt and having fun with your friends while doing it; total awesome, man. Who cares if you didn’t get the rhythm right?

* I accidentally and mistakenly had bought another copy of ‘Digital Fortress’ by Dan Brown. Where as I’m actually dying to get my hands on his latest ‘The Lost Symbol’. Damn it. Am such an idiot.

* Can’t wait for my god daughter to arrive. Yeay!

Listen : Meet me halfway - Black Eye Peas

Countdown has started?

A friend, ok scrap that. MY best friend in this whole wide world – N, is about to give birth to her second child. And for the last 3 days now, she is updating her facebook status with some sort of countdown to the exact day that she’ll be having her C- Section. Funny thing is, the date she had chosen is also will be my birthday! (not a coincidence there, Einstein!) Yep. Bar any unwanted consequences err.. like me being dead much earlier than that; I’ll be 33 freaking years old in 16 days! (Thanks to the countdown. Blergh!) Usually, I don’t really looking forward to my birthday, I mean, nothing earth-shatteringly special had happened in the past (on my birthday) but I do always appreciate and be thankful than I’m alive and still kicking! But anyway, I’m getting the BEST Birthday present this year. Another God Daughter. ( I have few godsons & god daughters, but that’s story for another time!) So, no complaints. And this is life. As it is; we get some, we lose some. I digress.

Listen : Honey Bee - Zee Avi

Perhaps

Hi y`all..

enjoy this okeh?

Changes

Why do we have to change and suddenly became someone else when we’re in love or a relationship? Is it normal? I mean, of course we have to adapt and be more considerate, now that there is another person involved. But, how much changes that we’re talking about here? I’ve heard that if you love someone, you’ll have to also deal with; not only the good things about him/her, but their warts, habits and all. I couldn’t agree more with that. Of course, it is a mutual, double lanes highway. As in, they also have to understand, be considerate and accepting our (bad) habits or styles etc etc. More importantly, the issue here is to find a common ground between two people. Yes, I’m sure that differences are inevitable. But, communication is vital. Talk things over and discuss what matters most to both of you ~ that are the best advice given to me in regard of love/relationship by a dear friend. I am so following that.

Wish me luck! :)

Listen : Georgia On My Mind - Ray Charles

January

Hullo..

What a rollercoaster kind of life. What a ride. What a year (so far). And it’s only January, folks. I love every minutes of this life, oh well, after all this is only life that I know. Be it happy moments, heartache, being in love (again. Finally!) or some heart-wrenching, eye-opening and nerve-wrecking situations. Am truly soaking up this life! I want to feel positive like this forever! Even if some things did not come my way or not turn out to be as what I wish for; I would still be able to believe that things do happened for its own reason, no?

Listen: The Climb - Miley Cyrus

Happy New Year 2010!

It's already the end of year 2009.

The time went by so fast like you would not believe it. So many things had happened this year and some will be remembered and some are best to be forgotten. We live and learnt, we move forward.It's the cycle of this life.

Anyway,
I would like to wish all of you a happy new year 2010! and here's to a more wonderful, lovely, successful, happy, fantastic year to come~! Bring it on.

Listen : Speechless - The Veronicas

Some Hearts!

"Some Hearts"

I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky

Always stumbling' around in circles

But I must have stumbled into something

Look at me

Am I really alone with you

I wake up feeling like my life's worth living

Can't recall when I last felt that way

Guess it must be all this love you're giving

Never knew never knew it could be like this.. But I guess

Some hearts

They just get all the right breaks

Some hearts have the stars on their side

Some hearts,

They just have it so easy

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Some hearts just get lucky, lucky sometimes

Now who'd have thought someone like you could love me

You're the last thing my heart expected

Who'd have thought I'd ever find somebody

Someone who someone who makes me feel like this

Well I guess Some hearts

They just get all the right breaks

Some hearts have the stars on their side,

Some hearts,

They just have it so easy

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Ohhhhhh

Even hearts like mine

Get lucky, lucky sometimes

I'm Not The right Kind Of Monster For You

I suppose if you have not read the Twilight Saga books, you will still can make sense or get the gist of the whole human/vampire/Warewolf love story by watching the New Moon film. But it’s not the same if you have read all the books first. Read the books and went to see the movie is much more satisfying, I think. For me, the characters from the book came alive and saying exactly (and more) than what was written in the book and the emotion displayed by the actors are more believable and convincing to me, well, you know how painful the looks on Edward’s face and exactly why was he acting that way (if you read the book). And like what my friend (who, obviously had not read any of the book) commented during the movie,” why Edward looks so excruciatingly in pain all the time?” hmm..Come to think of it, yeah.. his expression is kinda annoying, but I like Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) this time! She is much more relaxed and her acting is so much better than in ‘Twilight’. Overall, I think if you are Twilight saga fan, ahem, (Like Moi) then you’ll enjoying the movie very much, thank you. But then, if you aren’t, well, it’s your money and you can say whatever you want. By the way, I am soo in Team Edward – why you asked? He got the coveted girl! Need I say more? Haha

My December

Currently, I am soo head over heels and crazily in love with Royal pains! I watched the whole season 1 DVDs in single sitting. How bout that? Really, it was that enjoyable and the 12 episodes managed to captivate my interest and made me laughed throughout the marathon session. I admitted that what really piqued me are of course the plot and the cast! Oh my, Mark Feuerstein is hot! And I always love him since I saw him in that awesome movie called ‘ In her Shoes’ with Toni Collete. He’s a sweet, sweet man & such a doll! Seriously. Watching him makes me want to pinch his cheek. I honestly don’t know why.


the story went like this..

“Hank (Mark F.) is a rising star in the New York City medical community, until he loses everything fighting for the life of a patient. With his career stalled and his personal life in shambles, Hank is in need of a new beginning. That's where his younger brother Evan (Paulo Costanzo) steps in. Fed up with Hank's personal pity-party, he convinces Hank to join him on a last-minute trip to the Hamptons for Memorial Day weekend. When the brothers crash a party at the home of a Hamptons billionaire and a guest falls critically ill, Hank saves the day. His dramatic medical rescue draws attention from the crowd, and soon Hank's phone starts ringing off the hook with patients demanding house calls. Inadvertently, Hank has become the hot new "concierge doctor" in town. Though Hank is initially reluctant to embrace this new career, with encouragement from Evan and an ambitious young woman who volunteers to be his physician assistant name Divya, he decides to stay in town for the summer. Once again solving medical crises and helping those in need, Hank is back to doing what he does best. And now he's reinvented himself as the Hamptons' hottest new doctor-in-demand.”
http://www.usanetwork.com/series/royalpains/theshow/overview/index.html

the worst part is to wait for the second season which will only premiere next summer in 2010, like, Hello! that's pure torture, folks.

Anyway, we’re already in December now and it feels that the year is flying by so fast I can barely catches my breath. I know time waits for nobody but I do wish that some things would remain the same. I mean, if there are any changes, sure, we’ll have to adapt. But I get tired of adapting, sometimes. But then again, It’s such the nature of life and we’re pretty much can’t do anything about it. It’s either we’re adapting to changes surrounding us or get lost or left into oblivion.

Have a productive last month of the year. I know I’ll try to tying all loose ends, finishing all outstanding matters and probably try to spend some of my annual leave contemplating again and again about this thing called life. Oh! Joy.

Listen : When you look at me – Carrie Underwood

I'm not dead yet

Owh. This hurts badly.

Apparently, the one thing that I’m (currently) really wishing and hoping for will not materialize, this time around. Feel so bad and frustrated to bits. Was it because I had doubt lingered in my head all the time? Was it because I keep questioning my own capabilities? I don’t know. But I do know that things happened for its reason, which sometimes we, mere mortal could not fathom. I vow not to dwell in sadness and keep feeling down like this.

It things are not meant to be, who am I to say or do otherwise, eh? Alas, I digress.

Another day, another chance for happiness.

Listen : Play On - Carrie Underwood

Do or Die

Hello people.

Am so freaking out right now. I’m about to make a life-changing and super huge decision. Ever. It feels like standing on the edge of a cliff and about to jump off into the ocean. It is, as if I can see the millions reasons of why I shouldn’t jump in but at the same time, I know in my hearts that this is what I always want to do. The fleeting moments of doubts keep creeping up but I’m holding on to what my heart always belief in and what my head already decided on. God willing, I won’t back out and I won’t give in. So help me god, I’ve no intention to ruin someone’s life. Yikes!

p/s : sorry if this sounds ridiculous & does not make sense. Will share the details once I’m back in reality. And oh!. I’m not suicidal though. No worries.

Listen : I will be - Avril Lavigne

Hello again.

Owh! I miss updating here!

but the thing is, I'm so outta ideas what to write. Okay, I probably have tonnes of things going on for the last 3 weeks, but you know, what with the festive season-and-long holidays and neverending eating sessions, all make my mind muddy and extra laziness crept in. Hah! what an excuse!

Anyway, it's back to normal routines now. I hope. But what's routines? I was bored with routines. Routines sucks! I need some spur-of-the-moment kinda thingy and I wanna be more spontaneous! yep. To avoid this slow and painful death by boredom.

Take care all.

Listen: Dream on Hayley - Jim Morrison

The end of Ramadan, and 1st Syawal beckoning

although there are still few more days left of this Ramadan month. I would like to wish a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Happy Holidays to you all!

Take care and don't road hogging eh? or I'll kick your sorry ass haha..

Listen: Suasana Aidilfitri - Annuar & Elinna

State of Play

Hi there.

Have you watched the movie 'State Of Play' ? This is another Political Conspiracy story from The Capitol Hill, DC. The main characters are a reporter named Cal McAffey (played by overweight Russell Crowe, but still brilliant!) who is a college friend of congressman Rep. Stephen Collins (played by Ben Affleck! Not so convincing to me, but oh well, I’m probably so used to congressman being portrayed as old-almost-senile type). 2 murders and 1 near fatal shooting opened the story at the beginning and from then on, the motives and linkages unravel to a more complex conspiracy surrounding the congressman, his sex scandal and more profound reason of all the madness, money (of course). In between all that, there seems to be old wound or history in the friendships between Cal, Stephen and Stephen’s wife Annie (played by Robin Wright). As a friend, Cal seems unrelentlessly trying to protect Stephen, but at the same time he is also a true journo at heart and chasing the scoop of news and bringing out the truth is what he does best. It is also fun to see the dynamic between Cal and his sidekick, a dewy-eye cub-reporter name Della Frye. (Played by Rachel McAdams – I love her!) I feel the movie is refreshing as we are also been thrust to look at things from a newspaper/reporter’s point of view and how things work in a news room. And yeah! Helen Mirren rocks as the tough cookie Editor of the Washington Globe.

Quiz Time!

Hello y'all,
you know there are so much quizzes that you can do over at Facebook, aight? but I came across this one at Ellyn's blog sometimes ago and it was fun. Fun as in ; I'm too lazy to do my work-and-it's Friday-so can't wait for the weekend kinda fun. So yeah, try it. But am not tagging anybody tho..

rules: copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people. use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. they have to be real - nothing made up! if the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. what i would prefer to have been my name : Shazmin
2. a four letter word : Shit
3. a boy's name : Shia Le Beouff
4. a girl's name : Shakira
5. an occupation : Stock broker
6. a color : Sparkling Red
7. something you'll wear : Salvatore Ferragamo
8. somewhere you want to go : Salamanca, Spain
(hah! i made this question up, because I dunno where the original No. 8 went to :P)
9. a food : Soup
10. something found in the bathroom : Shower foam
11. a place : Seremban
12. a reason for being late : Stuck in traffic
13. something you'd shout : Sweett!
14. a movie title : Slumdog Millionaire
15. something you drink : Sirap Limau
16. a musical group : Spice Girls
17. an animal : Seladang
18. a street name : Santa Monica Boulevard
19. a type of car : Subaru Impreza
20. the title of a song : Say my name – Destiny’s Child


And now, some flowers and green stuff for our eye's pleasure. Can't possibly put up food pictures now, being fasting month and all, rite?

Okay people, have a nice weekend ahead. I know I will, because it'll be extended til Monday. Woweee! State of Selangor is observing Nuzul Quran (17th Ramadan) so, yeah. I love days' off. Throw it my way. Anytime.

Listen : Have you Ever - Westlife version. Although I also love the original version by Brandy

Malaysia Satu

In conjunction with Independence Day celebration recently, a song-writing competition was launched to find a song that truly representing the spirit of 1 Malaysia concept. When the advertisement for the final shortlisted songs came on air, I thought this is the one with most catchy chorus & it instantly became my favourite. And yeay! to Audi Mok, Nurfatimah & Faizal Tahir coz they won the competition!

The lyric..

Ku teguh berdiri tiada lagi ragu atau gentar
Ku terus berani melangkah maju ke hadapan
Satu impian nyawaku pertaruhkan
Genggaman tanganmu, semangatku terus membara janji ku pada mu,
Harapanmu ingin ku laksanakan
kau adalah ilham pada mereka yang ingin Berjaya
Kau terus berjuang demi membawa perubahan satu impian oh berjuta harapan
Genggaman tanganmu, semangatku terus membara janji ku pada mu,
harapanmu ingin ku laksanakan
Satu Malaysia,
kita inspirasi pada dunia Nama kan dijulang,
kita menjadi kebanggaan
Satu wawasan bersama bergandingan..
Genggaman tanganmu, semangatku terus membara janji ku pada mu,
harapanmu ingin ku laksanakan

And now the song..

Big Shout Out to a Friend - yes Roz, to you! :)

May our friendship last forever by Nicholas Gordon

May our friendship last forever;

May I sail upon your sea.

May we go through life together;

May there always be a "we."

May I be your endless sky;

May you breathe my gentle air.

May you never wonder why

Each time you look for me, I'm there.

May we be for each a smile

Like the warm, life-giving sun;

Yet when we're in pain awhile,

May our suffering be one.

May we share our special days,

The happiness of one for two;

And if we must go separate ways,

Let my love remain with you.

Happy Birthday Roz, my dearest friend!

What Independence Day did to you..

Yesterday Malaysia celebrated 52nd Independence Day! Yay to my beloved country.

And over the long weekend, I had some time to reflect and ponder. Then, it just hit me. Like 'Bamm!' and I realized that some days on a rare occasion, I kind of like my work and what I’m doing for living. But most of the times, I freaking hate this job. If it isn’t for the money, I’d surely had blown this job into oblivion! Seriously. I cannot fathom the reason why I’m bothered to stay anyway. I’d be whining how much I hate my job to friends and almost bore them to death with my sad & sorry life. What makes it so hard for me to leave? To just walk away from all of these? Apart from the financial reason, I think the single biggest reason why I’m rutting here is due to ‘the unknown factor’. I am scared shitless to start all over at a new place, getting to know new colleagues, trying my best to fit in, urgh! That’s a borderline to a nightmare for me. It’s kind of funny because friends would be saying, ‘it shouldn’t be a problem for you because you’re such a friendly person’ well, as friendly as I am as to the next Miss Congeniality, I actually hate to be friendly all the time, people. Really, I know it’s my nature, being born under star of Pisces and all, but can a person sometimes go against their nature? They can, right? People change every day, I think. And what you read in horoscope not necessarily depict a real you and your truly self. Of course you’ll be a fool to let those prediction rules how to live your life. I am an example of how hard it is to leave my comfort zone. Even the thought of leaving would give me a minor heart palpitation. So distressing. Yep, it’s that bad.

But the thing is, after 7 years and half you know it's high time for you to pack and leave. Things have stopped being rosy many years ago. And it merely just a job now. The hunger has gone, the initiatives has long since wilted away. I need a change. Badly. So help me God.

Listen : Move Along - All American Rejects

Monday

It's monday. I'm fasting. Tummy's singing a sad song. And still have work to do. erghh!

Ramadhan is here!

yes, it's the time of the year again.

It's the arrival of Ramadhan month where all muslims are required to fast for everyday from sun up to sunset for a whole month. Muslim (in Malaysia) will start their fasting from tommorow until September 20th. It'll be a time to reflect, be thankful for all the good things in life and try to optimize the opportunity to score more good deeds (pahala) as much as possible during this holy month. And of course, don't over eat, people! I know it's tempting to see all delicacies and dishes on sale every afternoon throughout the month. Note to self : If anything, I should be watching what I'm eating this time. Haha!

So yeah, have a good ramadhan and hopefully we will be blessed during this holy month. Peace on earth y'all!

p/s: my car's battery died on me this morning! erghh!! but managed to had a good karaoke session last nite with I and her sister A and 3 new friends - A, H & A. Fun time before the fasting month? what a crap concept. But am not paying, so most definitely not complaining. tehehehe.

Taa..

Listen : Yang penting Hepi - Jamal Mirdad

It's what we are

Hi Y'all,

ok, first thing first. I freakingly finished the 'Breaking Dawn' today! yeay!! and am so happy with the ending of the Twilight Saga. Seriously, I love it. Hurrah to Bella & Edward. I'm crazy like that, i know.

Anyway, question of the day. Are we all hypocrites?

Well, I’d say, that depends. How truthful can you be? Or how far you would you go not caring what other people might think of you? For example, if you’re working in an office where you wholeheartedly and absolutely hating and loathing your boss. Would you go to him and tell him to ‘ Fuck Off!’ ? I don’t think so. That means, you still got left with consideration to be respectful in you. That does not mean, you hate him less, it is the afterward effects that you’re mulling with. For once, you’ll have to quit your job and work on finding new one. And you might hesitate to go and run amok because you’re concern with what others will think of you. If you value what other people think of you, then you might feel guilty and always in the concern of what might people think of your action? And seriously, that is one of things I hate most in this world – what other people might think? Why the fuck should I care?

Honestly, there is no way in this world for us to satisfy everybody. You did something and your parents might question, why? You changed your way, and then your friends will think you’re crazy. You did this way, they are rolling their eyes. You did that way; they are not nodding their heads either. So tell me? Who should we care for and be concern with? Yep. Ourselves folks. Other people be damn.

And I would say, we are all hypocrites. Not always intentionally, but sometimes we have to be one. Because my friends, this life is all about balance. You think hardest you can, consider all the actions and its consequences but in the end, they will come down to one thing. No regrets. At least, try not to have any.

I'm off to enjoy my weekend. Hope you'll have a good one.

Now, put your left hand on your heart, and here a kiss to your forehead. Muaashh!!

Listen : Our Song - Taylor Swift

Who do you think you are?

"ergh! am so emo right now. Sorry to bother you who read this. But I need to vent out something out of my system. Damn it la..I hate it when people whom I just met, supposely a new friend but talk bad things about me behind my back. Sheesh! who do you think you are? and to be honest, don't judge me because you ain't got that right to do so. In the first place, you're nobody to me. Nobody. I'm fine with my life before and I'm going to be ok now and I'll be good in future too, thanks. Knowing that you are actually a jerk, poyo and such an asshole is of no regret to me. You are just a speck of unworthy dust that somehow made your way into my universe. And now, would you please get lost and never came into my life again. You means nothing to me. Your friendship is worthless. Nope, I'm not affected by you. At all. If anything, it only shows that I should just trust my instinct more often..haha "

so there..I've said what I felt. Actually it's nothing lah. Forget that you read this.

Now, lets go back reading the 'Breaking Dawn' ..hah! this is another story. A comment from fellow fan of twilight Ann has asked whether I would like to have the e-book. I was so excited and said thanks to her but forgot to leave my email. Anyway, that same afternoon, I went out for lunch and somehow, I went into MPH and straightaway bought the book. Oww! then I realized I could read the ebook and probably get the book as part of my collections in future. Erghh! anyway, I already bought the book and currently on page 300. Arghhh! it's killing me you know?not knowing the ending.

Listen : Cool - Gwen Stafani

Twilight Newborn

Owh..I am soo sucked into this Twilight saga. Yesterday, I finished the 3rd book, 'Eclipse' and seriously, I can't wait to get my fangs on the next one ' Breaking Dawn'. (see, I'm good at Vampire-talk now! haha)

The stories is so interesting. I know it's a fiction, but still..just to come up with that kinda idea, developed it and wrote it down beautifully like that. Wow! a writer never cease to amaze me. They have such strong conviction of their ideas and all challenges aside, I know they thinks it's worthwhile. A good publisher do help, I think. Anyway, I'm enjoying the twilight saga very much and the next movie ' New Moon' is ready to roll out soon.

In the mean time, let me think whether I should ;

1) go spent my money and buy the 'Breaking Dawn'

2) wait until E finished reading hers and borrow it

3) or I should.. slowly throwing my charm and try to coerce an unsuspecting victim to give me their copy, cause if not then I'll turn into one angry vampire & start kissing their neck and sucking their blood! Ew! Gross!

Taa..

Listen : My Love - Justin Timberlake

People From Forks

Since I'm still in the Twilight mode..here goes some pictures to enjoy;





New Moon and Twilight Pictures



New Moon and Twilight Pictures




New Moon and Twilight Pictures




New Moon and Twilight Pictures



New Moon and Twilight Pictures




New Moon and Twilight Pictures


How 'bout that? Nice pics eh.

Btw, I finished reading 'New Moon' and just borrowed next book ' Eclipse' from my friend, Eva.

Listen : I'm me once more - Zee Avi

Edward Cullen & Isabella Swan

erm.. you know who are they right? no? well, nevermind. I myself just started reading about them. And to tell you the truth, it's kinda fascinating story to me. The whole idea that vampires are living and mingling with us, mere mortal, is mind blowing! But I broke my own rule; always read the book first, then go watch the movie/dvd. In this case, I bought the dvd way back early this year and already watched 'em. The film ' Twilight' was a major hit last year and needless to say so is the book sales. Only recently, I got to borrow the book from a friend, KC and got hooked on the series.

Today I bought the second book, New Moon. And knowing myself, I would prefer to read it in a single sitting. I can't really focus on the story if I got distracted, stop and then continue reading a novel. I just don't have the patience.

And oh yeah, I think Stephanie Meyer is an awesome writer. Have a nice weekend y'all.

Listen : Stay – Lisa Loeb

Transformation of a Cat

Weekends looming.

I'm quite bored and it's Friday.

So, let's have a look at this super cute transformation (no, not the Transformer the movie. which I'm yet to go and watch! lame, I know) of my favourite cat- Kodok! I met him again recently, and I was so amazed to see that he had grown soo much!No wonder his owner, Y is missing him badly. You see Y is currently expecting her first child and she & hubby have to find new home for Kodok. I am soo wanna take him in! but being away for work regularly might not be practical factor. So, check this out.

pictures above were taken on January 18th, 2009. Next, have a look at him with pictures dated February 10, 2009.

How about that? Next, these are most recent images of Kodoks taken last weekend (July 19, 2009). Hold your breath, folks!



Hah! he's obviously getting bigger and bigger now. What a cute cat!

Now that, really makes my day.

Listen : Bubbly - Colbie Callait

A Note..

Dear self,

I don’t know why I’m writing this note. I just thought that I would like to remind myself that some things just won’t go my way or turn out as what I wish for. So, please, just move on. Don’t dwell in the past, take heed and learn your lesson, dear. You know the drill; there is no point of lingering around and harp on the past mistakes. There is a whole wide world out there to be explored and the guilty feeling is one baggage you’ll want to leave behind. Go on love, you deserved so much better!

XoXo,

Shue

Listen : Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

2nd half of this year..

has finally arrived. It's July 1st today and I was wondering where the last 6 months have gone to? Time really do flies folks.

And apparently, somebody is starting his new job today. Good luck Ben! and you know you're a subject of jealousy from all over the world.

Listen : You should've said no = Taylor Swift

The Way You Make Me Feel..

Goodbye to King of Pop - Michael Joseph Jackson (Aug 29,1958 - June 25, 2009). You're truly talented and one of greatest entertainer. You'll be missed by your legions of fan worldwide. And this is my favourite song of Michael Jackson. What's yours?

Arrghh..these last few days

are truly testing my patience. I'm sitting here(while trying to look super busy) and counting how many hours left before my departure time from Sarawak to KL. It'll be around 6.15 Friday evening.Woot! Can't wait to go back and meet my new gadget! Finally! it's a long awaited present for myself..err from myself!( i bought it on my own laa) How lame is that? no matter.

Anyway, I took some more pictures this last couple of days.

It was sunny and blue sky on Sunday..

when I heard a buzzing engine/motor sound nearby..

Owh! these are so cute. I don't know what's its name (a kind of Glider with engine-powered and the controller is sitting down) but in CSI last night, they called it 'Airlite'. And the person who's handling it got so near to the hotel building..

And then, it's back to peaceful sunset again..

Taa..

Listen : White Horse - Taylor Swift

Back to nature

Well it seems that I took a small step to conquer my own fear yesterday. Me and few friends went to visit Niah Cave and to tell you the truth, I have not walked that far for quite sometimes. The journey from Miri town to the Niah National Park took about 1 and half hour drive and then we have to take a boat ride to cross over a river (shortest boat ride - abt 1 minutes!) and started walking the trail for about 3 Kilometres to reach the Cave mouth. Owh! if it's not for the proper pathway/plank walkway, I don't think we'll make it less than 1 hour to the place. We first reach the Trader's Cave, it was name for the trading activities that took place there since long time ago where the collected birds' nest exchange hands between the traders and the birds nest collectors before it were taken out and sold at markets in town. We further climb up the steps and reach the main cave mouth of Niah Cave, they called it West Mouth and it's huge and very cooling inside. There is a gated area of archeology excavation site inside the cave where the archeologist have discovered existences of human as old as 40,000 years and remnants of early settlements in the cave. There is this eerie feeling to the whole cave and I have a new respect for the birds' nest collectors. Really, they would climb up a makeshift bamboo poles to reach the ceiling of the cave and collected the Swiftlets Nest which would end up as delicacies to others. It's a tough way of making a living, I'd say. I did not further climb up the trails into the deeper parts of the caves as I was bone tired at that point and make my way back outside to wait for my other friends. But anyway, having reached the main Niah Cave is a small accomplishment to me already. Haha! These are few pictures and sorry for the not-so-good quality as I was only using my handphone and regretfully did not pack my camera (sheesh!) for this outstation trip. Now I'm off to rest my blisterred feet. Ouch!

Listen: Girlfriend & Hot - Avril Lavigne (accompanied me along the walk back from the cave) Phew!

View from here..

I love checking out the view from my room balcony when I woke up in the morning and again when I came back from work in the evening. The sounds of waves kinda soothing. And I would love to have a home by a beach someday in future. Imagine, to have an ocean view from your kitchen windows, a deck to hang out and nap in the afternoon, reading for whole day while enjoying the breeze and walking on the beach watching the sunset.Bliss!

However, at the moment, these view will do.

Listen : Footprints in the sand - Leona Lewis

Ne le dis a` personne..

.. or Tell No One is the title of a French film I caught last night after I check into the Everly Hotel Miri . And the movie is so endearing and quite action-packed at the same time. Imagine what you'll do when there is mystery surrounding the tragedy that took your wife's life 8 years ago. And after all the depression and healing process only to discover that she's not dead but in hiding for fear of her safety (and his live) Owh! so sad.But in the end they got together again and that's what matter, right. Yeay! to a happy ending.

And I'm so sleepy to start work this morning. Miri, as predicted is hot!

Listen : You belong with me - Taylor Swift

'Miri' on my mind

My holiday plan to Phuket was scraped off this time. Again! Nothing new there. The only travel I’m doing these days seems to be for work, work and work related only. How boring. By next Monday, I should be at Miri. It is the second largest city in state of Sarawak on Borneo Island. A direct flight from Kuala Lumpur and crossing the South China Sea shall take about 2 hrs++. And honestly, Miri is ain’t that bad at all. I like it there more than Kuching (Sarawak State Capital). Somehow I found Miri is more laidback, relaxing and peaceful. And of course it’s also due to its location by the seaside. Where as in Kuching you’ll find a river that flows throughout the city and most areas are cramp as businesses and main activities tend to be around these area. In Miri, no traffic jam! Nada. Driving around is easy breezy. Eventhough, I’ve been there many times, sadly I haven’t been to Miri’s main attraction –Mulu Cave! It’s not because I’ll have to take another short plane ride to go there, it’s just I’m not a cave-loving person by nature. You see, I am actually a claustrophobic. I hate to be in a small, confine and closed area or space ..err like in a cave.(duh!) And I can’t stand the feeling of being trap like that. However, I’m still considering whether I should go check out the caves this time. Or else, there is also Niah Cave nearby; I think about 1 half hour’s drive from Miri. So what is your phobia? What is it that you’re afraid of?

Love Story

This is soo cute. Awww..

decision, decision..

and I really hate when I have to make a difficult choice. A decision need to be made soon. To decide on whichever side it is, means I'm doomed on on all account anyway.Ergh!I'm up in my neck and out of my wit thinking about this.So, blergh!.. Gotta run.

Listen : Please don't stop the rain ~ James Morrisson

Barca Rules!

okaay..BarcelonaFC won! They defeated Manutd 2-0. What a great game!I love Futbol.

Am so torn apart now..

Because I can't decide which team to root for. All these while, I am such a huge fan of both teams!! Anyway, all the best to Manchester United (Champion of 08-09 Barclay Premier League) and Barcelona FC (Champion of 08-09 Spanish La Liga) for tonight's final of Champions League. Woot! We'll see the results tommorrow ya..

Vs.

Listen : I want you - Kelly Clarkson

Spritzer Girl!

Have you watched a film titled ‘The Women’? okay, first off, I knew I was late/outdated/fall off the bandwagon or call it what you want. I only came across the DVD yesterday and watched it last night. My immediate reaction after the final credit roll is to hit the ‘Play’ button again! It was that Awesome! Owh man, I knew I already read the interview on Meg Ryan in the Oct 2008 InStyle Magazine (The same interview piece where she told that her ex- Dennis Quaid cheated on her during their marriage) and of course there are stories of her latest project – ‘The Women’. Anyway, let me tell you why I found this film is brilliant.

1) The casts
Look the cast member folks! Meg Ryan, Annette Bening, Debra Messing, Jada Pinkett-Smith, Eva Mendes, Candice Bergen, Debi Mazar, Cloris Leachman (most hilarious of all!) etc. If that doesn’t impress you, I don’t know what will.

2) The story
Although this is a remake from original movie of same title from 1930s, this latest/renewed version was done with superb themes (still on issues related to women but ‘twas time/generation-appropriate to current world), great story telling, excellent style of flow and deliciously witty. I laughed so hard especially by those funny lines by Edie Cohen (Debra Messing), Alex Fisher (Jada Pinkett-Smith) and Maggie the housekeeper (Cloris Leachman). The director of film, Diane English has done a superb job!

3) It’s an all women characters

How refreshing. (considering I have not watch the original 1930s one)

4) Gorgeous clothes

From the collection of Mary Haines (Meg Ryan) - Woho! yummy! It was designed originally by Narciso Rodriguez. How talented!

As much I would like to blab here more about the film, I think you should go get a copy/download and watch it (if you haven’t already.) I seriously think this is a heart-warming, empowering and insanely hilarious film!

*Spritzer Girl a.k.a Crystal Allen- the girl who works at Saks selling perfumes behind counter. Played by Eva Mendes in the movie.

Lovely..

I love cats. They are so cute,lovely, intelligent but usually spoilt rotten by their owner. These are pictures of Y' male cat named Kodok. As you can guess, he was spoilt and treated like a royal by his owner. Practically a baby to Y, well, until the real baby arrives anyway. (Congrats to Y & A!). I got 2 cats of my own called Harry & Tommy. They are almost 12 years old. But I have none of their pictures in my safekeeping now. I'll take some when I went back to my hometown next time.

Taa..

Listen: Whyyouwannabringmedown - Kelly Clarkson

Unconditionally

Unconditionally

To reciprocate
Is to willingly let go
To honour
Is to humbly accepting
To cherish
Is to gladly reaching out
To hope
Is to happily forgive
To soar
Is to know that you are content
To love
Is to give your heart and soul
Unconditionally.



chahshue@ Aman Suria
May 17th, 2009

Best Job in The world..

..is definitely not mine.

Hello y'all. Hows thing lately? Hope you're doing fine.

Am so into Kelly Clarkson latest album 'All I ever wanted' right now. Practically singing her infectious tracks in the car while driving and also while doing my works in the office. But rest assure that I won't suddenly jump on the table and belting out KC' My Life Would Suck Without Y*u' at the top of my lung anytime soon. Work wise, nothing new to report. Am in the office for the rest of May and most probably off to East Malaysia, Sarawak in June. Problem is, I hope it'll not clash with my plan trip to Phuk*t also in the middle of next month. we'll see about that, cause I can't back out from this trip. The airfares have been paid many months ago (last year, in fact) and we're just about to finalize the accomodations etc. Am so looking forward to this trip. I need a break from my mundane and routine job. Speaking of job, Congratulations to Mr Ben S.! I heart this guy! owh..so green with jealousy right now grrr!

okay folks, I leave you with this pictures of beautiful sunset. Taken during my work trip to Melaka last March. These are view of Straits of Malacca from my balcony at Century Mahkota Hotel, Melaka.

Listen : I'm already gone - Kelly Clarkson

I was away, I came back and yet..

I don't feel like writing much and detailing of my work trips here. There are, after all as the name suggested, work-related trips. But you're dead wrong if you think that's all I ever did during those long weeks away. Of course there are fun-n-play time! *wink*. Most of the time, my colleagues and I were busy enjoying delicious & cheap food that we could grab at Kota Bharu & Kuala Terengganu. The seafood there are heavenly. The fish, crabs & squids are all super fresh & well..dirt cheap. Pictures of the grub we had can be seen below. Hmm..howzzat?

And there is this one quiz I found in fb. So funny! Some answers are quite spot on, and some are hilariously nonsenses. Have you try it? Feel free to tag yourself.

Put your iPod, mp3, or media player on shuffle.For each question, press the next button to get your answer. You must write down the name of the song, no matter how silly it sounds!Tag 10 of your friends to do the same!P.S. No cheating!!

How Many Of These Have I Done?Voices inside my head – Dixie Chicks
If someone says "Is this okay?" you say?Haunted – Kelly Clarkson
How would you describe yourself?Everything back but you – Avril Lavigne
What do you like in a guy/girl?If the rain must fall – James Morrison
How do you feel today?Trouble - Pink
What is your life’s purpose?Heavenly – Skylar Blue
What is your motto?Alone – Avril Lavigne
What do your friends think of you?Mouth Shut – The Veronicas
What do you think of your parents?Tinggalkan aku – Anuar Zain
What do you think about very often?Come fly with me – Micheal Buble
What do you think of your best friend?Welcome to the black parade - MCR
What do you think of the person you like?Chasing cars – Snow patrol
What is your life story?Nothing ever hurt like you – James Morrison
What do you want to be when you grow up?Everybody hurts - REM
What do you think of when you see the person you like?Money for nothing – Dire Straits
What will you dance to at your wedding?Larut – Dewa19

What will they play at your funeral?I am your angel – Celine Dion & R Kelly
What is your hobby/interest?If that’s ok with you – Shayne Ward
What is your biggest fear?I cry - Westlife
What is your biggest secret?Silent House – Dixie Chicks
What do you think of your friends?Here I am – Leona Lewis
What will you post this as?So small – Carrie Underwood

Hah! fun quiz indeed.

Listen : All I ever want - Kelly Clarkson

More on Him..

Can't get enough of this fella.

Happy Brthday Adam Zane

Yesterday I attended the Birthday party for the son of my best friend. His name is Adam Zane Azlan and he turned 2 last Friday (April 10th). The theme was 'Wonder Pets' and his mummy put a cape (ala one of Wonderpets character) on him, so cute. I tried to find toy with Wonderpets characters/pictures but to no avail. However, got him a nice train by Fisher Price. Hope you like it, Adam! Met so many friends at the do. However, I was out of the door by 5 to rush for my flight at Subang Airport and here I am now, at Kota Bharu, Kelantan until this Thursday. On the other hand, my sister in law has been admitted to a hospital here and is schedule to undergo her C- Section tommorow. Weee! Looks like I'm gonna get a new niece/naphew soon!

Here is Adam Zane. A handsome boy and bundle of joys belong to SRR & MAM! Good job Mummy & Daddy! Love you all.

p/s : and thanks for the lovely food. Sorry can't stay long and help clean up.

Listen: (this has been playing in my head since yesterday) - Wonder Pets theme song!

Talented Bloke

Have you heard of this artist name James Morrison? He is so talented, and his songs are all awesome. I think he's also very gorgeous to boot! at least for me lah. Yummy.

His voice is like..Oh my god! husky and so engaging. I sleep at night listening to his songs on my mp3 player. Would love to go to his concert one day and I found out that he came to KL in 2007 for the live & loud concert, kinda bummer! where was I at that moment?

His first album 'Undiscovered' was so cool and I never get tired listening to all the tracks. I was hooked. Then late last year when his 2nd album ' songs for you, truth for me' was out, again I found that all tracks are equally nice and this time around, I'm crazy for him! haha.

If you never heard of him, owh! go find the cd ok? and to prove that he's gorgeous as I claimed, here are his pics. I didn't take this personally, credits are to the photographer & his pictures up at his website. For more details of him you can check out at http://www.jamesmorrisonmusic.com/

but the collage is mine lah. Nice or not? see, I told you he's a hottie.

Til next time.

Listen : When I was little - Gorgeous Guy as feature above

Dream away

I had a weird dream recently. No, nothing's dirty about it :) in case you're wondering haha.

Right,

So I woke up (in my dream) because I felt kind of strong wind, sea breeze blowing to my face. Then, while still closing my eyes, I can hear the sound of waves lapping to the shore and birds chirping. I knew I am somewhere near the sea, on a beach precisely. But I'm positive that I've never been to one like this before. The smells of the saltwater hits my nose and my skin/face affirms that I'm indeed sleeping by the sea, you know the feeling of getting the 'salt on your skin'. I'm under a shady spot of many trees there and I think I'm alone, but I don't feel afraid or freak out, more like enjoying the moments and languishing the afternoon away. Then my alarm shattered all the bliss!Sheesh!

Dream aside, I will be happy to wake up on a place like this!

This is Mataking Island off the eastern coast of Sabah state (Malaysia have 2 states on Borneo Island - Sabah & Sarawak, while the rest of Borneo belongs to Indonesia & a little bit of Brunei). Would love to go to this island again and feast my eyes on the turquiose water, feel the calm and tranquility of the place. It really relaxing, I tell you that. Maybe my next trip there will see me embark on one thing that I wish I'd tried/take up/learn long time ago. Scuba Diving. For more on this lovely little charm island, go visit http://www.mataking.com/

Toodles.

Listen: The Sweetest Thing - U2

Am here..still

Hello all..

Owh! This is unacceptable. I rarely made any effort to update this blog anymore. How could it be? I love this blog! But somehow I was swamp with works, going outstations and rushing back to hometown in between weekends to help my sister & her business. This blog has truly lost its priority and almost forgotten. I don’t mind if there is no reader who visited and actually read my rant. It doesn’t matter. I wrote here mainly for myself. It’s always fun to me to reread back what I wrote previously and found (sometimes) amusing thoughts of what was actually running in my head at that time. Oh well.
See how fast time flies by? It’s already April. And Malaysia got our 6th Prime Minister last Friday. Here’s to 1 Malaysia! As proclaimed by the new PM, YAB Dato’ Sri Mohd Najib Tun Razak. Ah yes, he’s from Pahang, my home state. Although technically, I was born in Negeri Sembilan but I feels more homely in Pahang. I lived most of my life and went to school (even 3 yrs of college in Kuantan). But I love my blood/history of my ancestors who hailed from Tanah Minangkabau to Negeri Sembilan to bits! Sadly, we only maintain minimal contacts with cousins and relatives from my mother’ side. I was in Seremban recently for work, but didn’t make time to go and meet my cousins, Shame on you, Chah!
And where am I going next? Next trip will see me going to east coast of peninsular Malaysia. Specifically,to the state of Kelantan and Terengganu. Coastal towns, cheap food & clothes, hmm what can I say? Let’s hope it’s no longer raining season there.

later.

listen: You make it real for me - James Morrison

Note to self

Dear Me,

Life is a journey, not a destination. So watch out for all the stops, fellow passengers, hiccups, delays and all the enriching experience it entails.

Be strong! (or at least try to appear as one, even if you quivering inside..erk!)

Think positive (on everything, on everybody - I'll try lah!)

Love your life. This is one shot-chance of living. No substitute. Make a full use of it.

Focus your energy to what your mind set to achieve! (same old, same old!)

And finally,

Obey the speed limit while driving, Chah! C'mon, after all you're already 32 TODAY!

Damn! I feel old.

Taa..

Listen: Better in Time - Leona Lewis

Time's Up Bush! and Barack's Parade is Starting..

Hi All,

Apparently after the tumultous 2 terms in White House, United States' 43rd President is ready and eager to start a new quiet chapter of his life. Leaving a legacy, be it good or bad is by no means a small feat. Admittedly, Bush mentioned in his last speech last week that there are many instances where he had to make tough decisions and he lives with no regret of them all. Yeah, lucky for you, everytime, he's decision apparently of course in favour to the advantages of the certain quarter of lobbyist, fundraisers, peoples with stakes and certain type of race & also that non-country who loves to bombing and killing Palestine peoples in their own land. Ergh! Pleasee, make way already..Bush. Be gone your legacy with the mistakes that US people made for elected you to the office in the first place for last 8 years.

On the other hand, Barack Hussein Obama is like a fresh breath of air that American needs in this dire economic moments. He has already planned and got approved for his $300 Billion saving plan from the Congress to revive the economy. Well, here's wishing All the best to Mr. Barack Obama and I'm curious to see about his Foreign Policy as whether he'll be taking different approach from his predecessor or more like move along the line of ' if it's not broken then no need to fixed it'. If things will not turn into something different, radically altogether when he's in helm, then I suppose don't be surprise that he'll only be a 1 term-president only! Let's hope not.

Honestly, this world need its Peace. We have to live in tolerant with other races, religions and languages.

At this point and whenever I took time to reflect; Syukur Alhamdulillah and I am feeling grateful and thankful that we're not living in a war zone and doesn't have to see kids were killed in cold blood on daily basis! Astaghfirullahalazim.. Al Fatihah to all muslims who fall in the middle east turnmoil and here's praying for speedy truce talk and end of the hatred.

Salam.

Listen: Umm Papi - Britney Spears. - I know, so unrelated to the issues at hand.

Of My Niece - Nur Raudhah

Nur Raudhah is the eldest daughter of my second sister. She is a smart, cute and funny girl. She can be naughty and clingy to her mom (and me) at times. Nur Raudhah is a pupil at Tadika Bistari Manja Jerantut and now she is in the 6th year old - class. I would say her obsession is all things related to Barbie and her favourite pastime is of course spending time watching Barbie's movies and that got me hooked on them too! Raudhah was born lactose-intolerent and only drink soya-based milk, Isomil which I can't stand its smell and taste until now. And yes, she's still drinking her milk from a bottle. My mission is to get her use a cup instead. Raudhah has a younger brother and they fights a lot but she can be very protective of him sometimes. I love them both to bits. And I love all my nieces & nephews too. Here's to sweet Odah whom I hope will grow and always be an obedient, smart, successful and sweet daughter to her parents! and remains as a lovely niece to her aunt (that's me!)

p/s : She 'coerced' her mom & me to give her presents nicely wrapped with card & ribbon. And reminded us of buying her cake too. Dang!

Love,

Mak Chah

Of resolution and other matters

Hi there..

Why do people always come up with the New Year resolutions? Is it as the reminder of your failure in previous year (to make change or not to repeat mistakes)? Or as motivational or pushing factors so you’ll work your ass towards that goal this year? For whatever reason there are, it’s our pledge to ourselves and I think we should honor it and put effort to make it happen. Problem is, I always forgot about my resolution by end of first quarter of the year. Pleghh! I do hope things will be different this time around. At least, for myself.

I spent the year-end long holiday recently by helping out my sister at her Bridal Shop. It wasn’t a surprise that I am actually enjoying my works there. It feels fine to approach and sell the packages to customers effortlessly. Well, the products/package are all in my head cause we had numerous discussion on what are the best prices for packages that we can offer. And I don’t mind talking and explaining things to people, hence the selling points came naturally, I think. Anyway, my hometown and its surrounding areas is not a big market and customers are fairly easy to please. But of course, there are some people who want everything under the sun and only willing to pay at miniscule price. Aiyoh! How to do business like that? However, the shop is up and running smoothly now and more people are coming everyday. I wish my sister all the best!.

Have you heard of Elephant Sanctuary at Kuala Gandah, Lanchang, Pahang? We, as in myself and nieces and nephew went there recently. It was my first visit but a second one to my nieces & nephew because they already went there with their parents before. The place looks different, they said. Probably because of some development works are taking place right now and to me, that’s just spoilt the looks and feels of the area which is suppose to be a reserved forest area & sanctuary for elephant. And I believe they should maintain more natural green as much as possible. There are 2 elephants that were chained and can be approached and view closely by visitors. The other 3 adults elephants (by the looks from 50 metres away) are roaming freely in the (electric) gated area and can only be observed from a deck nearby. Hope to go there again sometime in future cause I think the elephants are cute!

Til next time..

Listen : Circus - Britney Spears

Is it too late..?

...to wish you all a very happy New Year 2009!
Let's hope this year will bring more happiness, prosperity and success to all of us!


Chah