Happy New Year 2010!

It's already the end of year 2009.

The time went by so fast like you would not believe it. So many things had happened this year and some will be remembered and some are best to be forgotten. We live and learnt, we move forward.It's the cycle of this life.

Anyway,
I would like to wish all of you a happy new year 2010! and here's to a more wonderful, lovely, successful, happy, fantastic year to come~! Bring it on.

Listen : Speechless - The Veronicas

Some Hearts!

"Some Hearts"

I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky

Always stumbling' around in circles

But I must have stumbled into something

Look at me

Am I really alone with you

I wake up feeling like my life's worth living

Can't recall when I last felt that way

Guess it must be all this love you're giving

Never knew never knew it could be like this.. But I guess

Some hearts

They just get all the right breaks

Some hearts have the stars on their side

Some hearts,

They just have it so easy

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Some hearts just get lucky, lucky sometimes

Now who'd have thought someone like you could love me

You're the last thing my heart expected

Who'd have thought I'd ever find somebody

Someone who someone who makes me feel like this

Well I guess Some hearts

They just get all the right breaks

Some hearts have the stars on their side,

Some hearts,

They just have it so easy

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Ohhhhhh

Even hearts like mine

Get lucky, lucky sometimes

I'm Not The right Kind Of Monster For You

I suppose if you have not read the Twilight Saga books, you will still can make sense or get the gist of the whole human/vampire/Warewolf love story by watching the New Moon film. But it’s not the same if you have read all the books first. Read the books and went to see the movie is much more satisfying, I think. For me, the characters from the book came alive and saying exactly (and more) than what was written in the book and the emotion displayed by the actors are more believable and convincing to me, well, you know how painful the looks on Edward’s face and exactly why was he acting that way (if you read the book). And like what my friend (who, obviously had not read any of the book) commented during the movie,” why Edward looks so excruciatingly in pain all the time?” hmm..Come to think of it, yeah.. his expression is kinda annoying, but I like Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) this time! She is much more relaxed and her acting is so much better than in ‘Twilight’. Overall, I think if you are Twilight saga fan, ahem, (Like Moi) then you’ll enjoying the movie very much, thank you. But then, if you aren’t, well, it’s your money and you can say whatever you want. By the way, I am soo in Team Edward – why you asked? He got the coveted girl! Need I say more? Haha

My December

Currently, I am soo head over heels and crazily in love with Royal pains! I watched the whole season 1 DVDs in single sitting. How bout that? Really, it was that enjoyable and the 12 episodes managed to captivate my interest and made me laughed throughout the marathon session. I admitted that what really piqued me are of course the plot and the cast! Oh my, Mark Feuerstein is hot! And I always love him since I saw him in that awesome movie called ‘ In her Shoes’ with Toni Collete. He’s a sweet, sweet man & such a doll! Seriously. Watching him makes me want to pinch his cheek. I honestly don’t know why.


the story went like this..

“Hank (Mark F.) is a rising star in the New York City medical community, until he loses everything fighting for the life of a patient. With his career stalled and his personal life in shambles, Hank is in need of a new beginning. That's where his younger brother Evan (Paulo Costanzo) steps in. Fed up with Hank's personal pity-party, he convinces Hank to join him on a last-minute trip to the Hamptons for Memorial Day weekend. When the brothers crash a party at the home of a Hamptons billionaire and a guest falls critically ill, Hank saves the day. His dramatic medical rescue draws attention from the crowd, and soon Hank's phone starts ringing off the hook with patients demanding house calls. Inadvertently, Hank has become the hot new "concierge doctor" in town. Though Hank is initially reluctant to embrace this new career, with encouragement from Evan and an ambitious young woman who volunteers to be his physician assistant name Divya, he decides to stay in town for the summer. Once again solving medical crises and helping those in need, Hank is back to doing what he does best. And now he's reinvented himself as the Hamptons' hottest new doctor-in-demand.”
http://www.usanetwork.com/series/royalpains/theshow/overview/index.html

the worst part is to wait for the second season which will only premiere next summer in 2010, like, Hello! that's pure torture, folks.

Anyway, we’re already in December now and it feels that the year is flying by so fast I can barely catches my breath. I know time waits for nobody but I do wish that some things would remain the same. I mean, if there are any changes, sure, we’ll have to adapt. But I get tired of adapting, sometimes. But then again, It’s such the nature of life and we’re pretty much can’t do anything about it. It’s either we’re adapting to changes surrounding us or get lost or left into oblivion.

Have a productive last month of the year. I know I’ll try to tying all loose ends, finishing all outstanding matters and probably try to spend some of my annual leave contemplating again and again about this thing called life. Oh! Joy.

Listen : When you look at me – Carrie Underwood

I'm not dead yet

Owh. This hurts badly.

Apparently, the one thing that I’m (currently) really wishing and hoping for will not materialize, this time around. Feel so bad and frustrated to bits. Was it because I had doubt lingered in my head all the time? Was it because I keep questioning my own capabilities? I don’t know. But I do know that things happened for its reason, which sometimes we, mere mortal could not fathom. I vow not to dwell in sadness and keep feeling down like this.

It things are not meant to be, who am I to say or do otherwise, eh? Alas, I digress.

Another day, another chance for happiness.

Listen : Play On - Carrie Underwood

Do or Die

Hello people.

Am so freaking out right now. I’m about to make a life-changing and super huge decision. Ever. It feels like standing on the edge of a cliff and about to jump off into the ocean. It is, as if I can see the millions reasons of why I shouldn’t jump in but at the same time, I know in my hearts that this is what I always want to do. The fleeting moments of doubts keep creeping up but I’m holding on to what my heart always belief in and what my head already decided on. God willing, I won’t back out and I won’t give in. So help me god, I’ve no intention to ruin someone’s life. Yikes!

p/s : sorry if this sounds ridiculous & does not make sense. Will share the details once I’m back in reality. And oh!. I’m not suicidal though. No worries.

Listen : I will be - Avril Lavigne

Hello again.

Owh! I miss updating here!

but the thing is, I'm so outta ideas what to write. Okay, I probably have tonnes of things going on for the last 3 weeks, but you know, what with the festive season-and-long holidays and neverending eating sessions, all make my mind muddy and extra laziness crept in. Hah! what an excuse!

Anyway, it's back to normal routines now. I hope. But what's routines? I was bored with routines. Routines sucks! I need some spur-of-the-moment kinda thingy and I wanna be more spontaneous! yep. To avoid this slow and painful death by boredom.

Take care all.

Listen: Dream on Hayley - Jim Morrison

The end of Ramadan, and 1st Syawal beckoning

although there are still few more days left of this Ramadan month. I would like to wish a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Happy Holidays to you all!

Take care and don't road hogging eh? or I'll kick your sorry ass haha..

Listen: Suasana Aidilfitri - Annuar & Elinna

State of Play

Hi there.

Have you watched the movie 'State Of Play' ? This is another Political Conspiracy story from The Capitol Hill, DC. The main characters are a reporter named Cal McAffey (played by overweight Russell Crowe, but still brilliant!) who is a college friend of congressman Rep. Stephen Collins (played by Ben Affleck! Not so convincing to me, but oh well, I’m probably so used to congressman being portrayed as old-almost-senile type). 2 murders and 1 near fatal shooting opened the story at the beginning and from then on, the motives and linkages unravel to a more complex conspiracy surrounding the congressman, his sex scandal and more profound reason of all the madness, money (of course). In between all that, there seems to be old wound or history in the friendships between Cal, Stephen and Stephen’s wife Annie (played by Robin Wright). As a friend, Cal seems unrelentlessly trying to protect Stephen, but at the same time he is also a true journo at heart and chasing the scoop of news and bringing out the truth is what he does best. It is also fun to see the dynamic between Cal and his sidekick, a dewy-eye cub-reporter name Della Frye. (Played by Rachel McAdams – I love her!) I feel the movie is refreshing as we are also been thrust to look at things from a newspaper/reporter’s point of view and how things work in a news room. And yeah! Helen Mirren rocks as the tough cookie Editor of the Washington Globe.

Quiz Time!

Hello y'all,
you know there are so much quizzes that you can do over at Facebook, aight? but I came across this one at Ellyn's blog sometimes ago and it was fun. Fun as in ; I'm too lazy to do my work-and-it's Friday-so can't wait for the weekend kinda fun. So yeah, try it. But am not tagging anybody tho..

rules: copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people. use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. they have to be real - nothing made up! if the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. what i would prefer to have been my name : Shazmin
2. a four letter word : Shit
3. a boy's name : Shia Le Beouff
4. a girl's name : Shakira
5. an occupation : Stock broker
6. a color : Sparkling Red
7. something you'll wear : Salvatore Ferragamo
8. somewhere you want to go : Salamanca, Spain
(hah! i made this question up, because I dunno where the original No. 8 went to :P)
9. a food : Soup
10. something found in the bathroom : Shower foam
11. a place : Seremban
12. a reason for being late : Stuck in traffic
13. something you'd shout : Sweett!
14. a movie title : Slumdog Millionaire
15. something you drink : Sirap Limau
16. a musical group : Spice Girls
17. an animal : Seladang
18. a street name : Santa Monica Boulevard
19. a type of car : Subaru Impreza
20. the title of a song : Say my name – Destiny’s Child


And now, some flowers and green stuff for our eye's pleasure. Can't possibly put up food pictures now, being fasting month and all, rite?

Okay people, have a nice weekend ahead. I know I will, because it'll be extended til Monday. Woweee! State of Selangor is observing Nuzul Quran (17th Ramadan) so, yeah. I love days' off. Throw it my way. Anytime.

Listen : Have you Ever - Westlife version. Although I also love the original version by Brandy

Malaysia Satu

In conjunction with Independence Day celebration recently, a song-writing competition was launched to find a song that truly representing the spirit of 1 Malaysia concept. When the advertisement for the final shortlisted songs came on air, I thought this is the one with most catchy chorus & it instantly became my favourite. And yeay! to Audi Mok, Nurfatimah & Faizal Tahir coz they won the competition!

The lyric..

Ku teguh berdiri tiada lagi ragu atau gentar
Ku terus berani melangkah maju ke hadapan
Satu impian nyawaku pertaruhkan
Genggaman tanganmu, semangatku terus membara janji ku pada mu,
Harapanmu ingin ku laksanakan
kau adalah ilham pada mereka yang ingin Berjaya
Kau terus berjuang demi membawa perubahan satu impian oh berjuta harapan
Genggaman tanganmu, semangatku terus membara janji ku pada mu,
harapanmu ingin ku laksanakan
Satu Malaysia,
kita inspirasi pada dunia Nama kan dijulang,
kita menjadi kebanggaan
Satu wawasan bersama bergandingan..
Genggaman tanganmu, semangatku terus membara janji ku pada mu,
harapanmu ingin ku laksanakan

And now the song..

Big Shout Out to a Friend - yes Roz, to you! :)

May our friendship last forever by Nicholas Gordon

May our friendship last forever;

May I sail upon your sea.

May we go through life together;

May there always be a "we."

May I be your endless sky;

May you breathe my gentle air.

May you never wonder why

Each time you look for me, I'm there.

May we be for each a smile

Like the warm, life-giving sun;

Yet when we're in pain awhile,

May our suffering be one.

May we share our special days,

The happiness of one for two;

And if we must go separate ways,

Let my love remain with you.

Happy Birthday Roz, my dearest friend!

What Independence Day did to you..

Yesterday Malaysia celebrated 52nd Independence Day! Yay to my beloved country.

And over the long weekend, I had some time to reflect and ponder. Then, it just hit me. Like 'Bamm!' and I realized that some days on a rare occasion, I kind of like my work and what I’m doing for living. But most of the times, I freaking hate this job. If it isn’t for the money, I’d surely had blown this job into oblivion! Seriously. I cannot fathom the reason why I’m bothered to stay anyway. I’d be whining how much I hate my job to friends and almost bore them to death with my sad & sorry life. What makes it so hard for me to leave? To just walk away from all of these? Apart from the financial reason, I think the single biggest reason why I’m rutting here is due to ‘the unknown factor’. I am scared shitless to start all over at a new place, getting to know new colleagues, trying my best to fit in, urgh! That’s a borderline to a nightmare for me. It’s kind of funny because friends would be saying, ‘it shouldn’t be a problem for you because you’re such a friendly person’ well, as friendly as I am as to the next Miss Congeniality, I actually hate to be friendly all the time, people. Really, I know it’s my nature, being born under star of Pisces and all, but can a person sometimes go against their nature? They can, right? People change every day, I think. And what you read in horoscope not necessarily depict a real you and your truly self. Of course you’ll be a fool to let those prediction rules how to live your life. I am an example of how hard it is to leave my comfort zone. Even the thought of leaving would give me a minor heart palpitation. So distressing. Yep, it’s that bad.

But the thing is, after 7 years and half you know it's high time for you to pack and leave. Things have stopped being rosy many years ago. And it merely just a job now. The hunger has gone, the initiatives has long since wilted away. I need a change. Badly. So help me God.

Listen : Move Along - All American Rejects

Monday

It's monday. I'm fasting. Tummy's singing a sad song. And still have work to do. erghh!

Ramadhan is here!

yes, it's the time of the year again.

It's the arrival of Ramadhan month where all muslims are required to fast for everyday from sun up to sunset for a whole month. Muslim (in Malaysia) will start their fasting from tommorow until September 20th. It'll be a time to reflect, be thankful for all the good things in life and try to optimize the opportunity to score more good deeds (pahala) as much as possible during this holy month. And of course, don't over eat, people! I know it's tempting to see all delicacies and dishes on sale every afternoon throughout the month. Note to self : If anything, I should be watching what I'm eating this time. Haha!

So yeah, have a good ramadhan and hopefully we will be blessed during this holy month. Peace on earth y'all!

p/s: my car's battery died on me this morning! erghh!! but managed to had a good karaoke session last nite with I and her sister A and 3 new friends - A, H & A. Fun time before the fasting month? what a crap concept. But am not paying, so most definitely not complaining. tehehehe.

Taa..

Listen : Yang penting Hepi - Jamal Mirdad

It's what we are

Hi Y'all,

ok, first thing first. I freakingly finished the 'Breaking Dawn' today! yeay!! and am so happy with the ending of the Twilight Saga. Seriously, I love it. Hurrah to Bella & Edward. I'm crazy like that, i know.

Anyway, question of the day. Are we all hypocrites?

Well, I’d say, that depends. How truthful can you be? Or how far you would you go not caring what other people might think of you? For example, if you’re working in an office where you wholeheartedly and absolutely hating and loathing your boss. Would you go to him and tell him to ‘ Fuck Off!’ ? I don’t think so. That means, you still got left with consideration to be respectful in you. That does not mean, you hate him less, it is the afterward effects that you’re mulling with. For once, you’ll have to quit your job and work on finding new one. And you might hesitate to go and run amok because you’re concern with what others will think of you. If you value what other people think of you, then you might feel guilty and always in the concern of what might people think of your action? And seriously, that is one of things I hate most in this world – what other people might think? Why the fuck should I care?

Honestly, there is no way in this world for us to satisfy everybody. You did something and your parents might question, why? You changed your way, and then your friends will think you’re crazy. You did this way, they are rolling their eyes. You did that way; they are not nodding their heads either. So tell me? Who should we care for and be concern with? Yep. Ourselves folks. Other people be damn.

And I would say, we are all hypocrites. Not always intentionally, but sometimes we have to be one. Because my friends, this life is all about balance. You think hardest you can, consider all the actions and its consequences but in the end, they will come down to one thing. No regrets. At least, try not to have any.

I'm off to enjoy my weekend. Hope you'll have a good one.

Now, put your left hand on your heart, and here a kiss to your forehead. Muaashh!!

Listen : Our Song - Taylor Swift

Who do you think you are?

"ergh! am so emo right now. Sorry to bother you who read this. But I need to vent out something out of my system. Damn it la..I hate it when people whom I just met, supposely a new friend but talk bad things about me behind my back. Sheesh! who do you think you are? and to be honest, don't judge me because you ain't got that right to do so. In the first place, you're nobody to me. Nobody. I'm fine with my life before and I'm going to be ok now and I'll be good in future too, thanks. Knowing that you are actually a jerk, poyo and such an asshole is of no regret to me. You are just a speck of unworthy dust that somehow made your way into my universe. And now, would you please get lost and never came into my life again. You means nothing to me. Your friendship is worthless. Nope, I'm not affected by you. At all. If anything, it only shows that I should just trust my instinct more often..haha "

so there..I've said what I felt. Actually it's nothing lah. Forget that you read this.

Now, lets go back reading the 'Breaking Dawn' ..hah! this is another story. A comment from fellow fan of twilight Ann has asked whether I would like to have the e-book. I was so excited and said thanks to her but forgot to leave my email. Anyway, that same afternoon, I went out for lunch and somehow, I went into MPH and straightaway bought the book. Oww! then I realized I could read the ebook and probably get the book as part of my collections in future. Erghh! anyway, I already bought the book and currently on page 300. Arghhh! it's killing me you know?not knowing the ending.

Listen : Cool - Gwen Stafani

Twilight Newborn

Owh..I am soo sucked into this Twilight saga. Yesterday, I finished the 3rd book, 'Eclipse' and seriously, I can't wait to get my fangs on the next one ' Breaking Dawn'. (see, I'm good at Vampire-talk now! haha)

The stories is so interesting. I know it's a fiction, but still..just to come up with that kinda idea, developed it and wrote it down beautifully like that. Wow! a writer never cease to amaze me. They have such strong conviction of their ideas and all challenges aside, I know they thinks it's worthwhile. A good publisher do help, I think. Anyway, I'm enjoying the twilight saga very much and the next movie ' New Moon' is ready to roll out soon.

In the mean time, let me think whether I should ;

1) go spent my money and buy the 'Breaking Dawn'

2) wait until E finished reading hers and borrow it

3) or I should.. slowly throwing my charm and try to coerce an unsuspecting victim to give me their copy, cause if not then I'll turn into one angry vampire & start kissing their neck and sucking their blood! Ew! Gross!

Taa..

Listen : My Love - Justin Timberlake

People From Forks

Since I'm still in the Twilight mode..here goes some pictures to enjoy;





New Moon and Twilight Pictures



New Moon and Twilight Pictures




New Moon and Twilight Pictures




New Moon and Twilight Pictures



New Moon and Twilight Pictures




New Moon and Twilight Pictures


How 'bout that? Nice pics eh.

Btw, I finished reading 'New Moon' and just borrowed next book ' Eclipse' from my friend, Eva.

Listen : I'm me once more - Zee Avi

Edward Cullen & Isabella Swan

erm.. you know who are they right? no? well, nevermind. I myself just started reading about them. And to tell you the truth, it's kinda fascinating story to me. The whole idea that vampires are living and mingling with us, mere mortal, is mind blowing! But I broke my own rule; always read the book first, then go watch the movie/dvd. In this case, I bought the dvd way back early this year and already watched 'em. The film ' Twilight' was a major hit last year and needless to say so is the book sales. Only recently, I got to borrow the book from a friend, KC and got hooked on the series.

Today I bought the second book, New Moon. And knowing myself, I would prefer to read it in a single sitting. I can't really focus on the story if I got distracted, stop and then continue reading a novel. I just don't have the patience.

And oh yeah, I think Stephanie Meyer is an awesome writer. Have a nice weekend y'all.

Listen : Stay – Lisa Loeb