Monday, July 11, 2005

Interesting weekend!

Wowee! I was tired. This is not usual Monday-blues whimper, y'all. I drove for abt 500km over the weekends. The journey started on Friday night, left for Phg at 8.30 p.m and reached Along' hse abt 11-ish. Saturday morning, met Angah & co at Genting Sempah and continue journey to Btg Kali-Kuala Kubu - Tg Malim highway toll - Bidor Exit- Teluk Intan - Sitiawan - Manjung Aiyoh! nak patah pinggang, my backside hurts, man! and finally I was introduce to another lovely, charming nephew of mine, Wan Mohamad Zurqarnain - nice name! kinda like the different spelling of Zurqarnain, but the mom calling her son ; A'in..oklah, whatever.
We had huge lunch - gulai lemak serai ayam, vegetables, ulam and sambal (plus new tempoyak), nothing unusual but the fact that Emak cooked them all make us eat our heart out! Ergh! yummy. After Asar, we headed to Teluk Batik and makan lagik, Ikan bakar for dinner! Later, a former classmate who now residing in Manjung took me out for drinks at Lumut. We had a nice chat and updates each other and yesterday (sunday); the drive home was fine, split with them all at Sabak Bernam, me going further to Sg Besar- Tg Karang - K.Sgor- Btg Berjuntai - Rawang- KL and they went back to Kuala Kubu crossover to Pahang by Genting Highlands road. All in all, 'twas a fun family outing lah, bukan selalu pun, and I really2 enjoyed Bapak's company, as we were both in the same car and we took turn to drive kan, I sensed that he is getting comfortable with my driving now, as compared to earlier days when I just bought the car, he would insisted to drive all the time (and how insulting do you think that is to me?) but then, whatever lah kan.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Where is the love?

Aww man, I just wished my friend for a blasting year in London yesterday, and she's going there nxt month, but I didn't mean it to be blown apart by the bombs! Darn, the price of peace is getting more and more expensive nowadays.
My condolence goes out to the victims and their family who were affected by the London bomb attacks.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Wedding bell!

One of my best friend got married this morning. It was a very- very simple affair, just the akad nikah ceremony(perkara wajib) which I think emulates much bigger meaning such as to solemnize their love, promises made to cherish each another and commitment offered for life! sweet!
Yesterday was fun.
Whole morning and afternoon was spent at workshop for my car periodic services. Repair were needed a bit here and there (you know la, national car, problem is mandatory thing) and only finished by 2 ++ , aww! I was so lazy to drive all the way to SA, so met my best friends instead. We, as in myself, another good friend of mine, Roz and Ufa ~the pengantin went out for the last time, before she got married lah. Met few friends at Exxon/Suria and then headed to Ampang Point area to look out for salon offering that henna drawing thingy. Ufa had her hand done beautifully, although a bit rip off (RM 80) cause she can get better deal at Semua House/Jalan TAR sana, according to Roz. Later we stop by at the fish shop, cause Roz wanted to buy some for her new fish bowl. Ufa's parents restaurant (Nong Sa Thai @ Wangsa Melawati, killer tomyam, i tell you!) was closed so we went to Al - Ansar, Keramat instead. It's been a long time since my last visit to the place and I'm practically choking on the Limau Ais when Roz told us the total bill~ so cheap! I mean, knowing nowadays all eatery places (restaurant/warung) are rushing to raise their food price and all, but here, there is still shop which managed to maintain their (much) affordable price, sodap lak tu. my lamb chop was..Yummy!
I slept over at Ufa's house (maybe for the last time) and practically saying goodbye to my bunking days/nights @ her house for good! I was touched, when last night she grabbed the comforter and pull it over me while saying " this could be the last time kita lepak/tidor sesama.." and I replied " yeah, but it doesn't matter, cause you'll get much better sleeping partner for life" Borak punya borak, citer2 suma, we slept almost 1 a.m.
I wish them Ufa & Z, Selamat Pengantin Baru and all the best in the world, semoga berkekalan ke anak cucu! Have a blasting year in London! go Bunny & Squirrell!

Thursday, July 07, 2005

of my doomsday..but no longer!

I thought wrongly.
I thought I’ll be happier
But I don’t.
I thought things will improve immensely
But it got worse.
I hate to feel this sick feeling in my gut.

How naïve of me
To actually hope for better things
When I’m further sucked into this stupor.
Such a rut.
Such a coward not to pull myself out
From this mess I’m in!

Are they any glint of happiness?
That might seep through these dark clouds
Which are hanging permanently over my mind?

When will I be seeing things clearly?
To feel lucky and be thankful
Or I might already be but didn’t realize it?


I wrote that quite sometimes ago. What I felt at those times was, well, I think it’s a mild depression. Even reading it now makes me sad. I was so down and felt low. Everything just turned out wrongly, most plans were squashed, and some hopes were dashed and I was livid with myself. Oh! how I swam in the pool of my own guilt! Feel like I failed myself. I know I deserved better but things just didn’t come/go my way. Sad, how sometimes you really longed for something but it’s not meant to be yours. I learnt to accept the grace of life long time ago. It’s hard but I knew I tried. There’s not so much of particular event or person, it’s just the whole general frustrating outlook which are really affecting me (and my mental!) at that time. Ok, maybe there WERE events and people involved but for the sake of writing and pouring my heart out here, let’s focus on me, shall we? Anyway, I got a grip of myself. It didn’t just happen la, I, for one, have to refocus my motives and collect my thoughts again. Somehow, I stop blaming myself (and others) for whatever things had happened and its inflicted pains. And I feel better, actually, I felt like some of heavy luggage had been taken from my back. Crazy! But the way I see it, I’m more happy and accepting myself better after I came to term with my past mistakes and decided its best to move forward. You should too, you know?

Monday, July 04, 2005

quiz time!

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.
You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.
You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Of my new nephew

Congratulations to both my bro J and sis-in-law K.Z who has welcome a new addition to their life~ a baby boy to be called Wan Mohamad Zulkarnain. Am yet to meet him, prolly this coming weekend will pay a visit and collect Emak skali from Manjung. wah! kelass nenek, dari Jerantut-Tanah Merah - Manjung..cucu punya pasal, sanggup tu!
Last weekend, I went back to Pahang and its musim buah~you know the drill; durian, manggis, rambutan and all those local yummy fruits are everywhere. Suddenly there were all this shacks sprouted along the road (and highways too!) selling fruits! On Saturday, went out to morning market with Angah and Raudhah to buy durians. Boy! I ate them heartily and stop when my stomach hurts~